Tuesday, January 25, 2011
the inner wall finally collapsed yesterday with the ego crushed completely
never once in my life have I ever felt so inadequate and desperate
I know you love me. But do you want me?
Monday, January 17, 2011
The past week had been.Intense.
Intense was my back to back meeting schedule
Intense was my love for Prive
Intense were the trips to all current Ecs showflat
Intense was our desire to buy Prive
Intense was our decision (and struggle)to buy it
Intense was the heartpain to see the dip in our bank account
Intense was my urge to reach out to him and hold him in my arms
Intense was the love when he tuck me in to bed and dotted my forehead for a goodnight's sleep
Intense was the argument over the some small lil issues
Intense was the realization that our car loan has been approved
Intense was the fingers pressing on the iphone calculator function
Intense was the anxiety while waiting for the Yacht confirmation
Intense was the jubilation when we got it
Intense.Indeed.
P.S. Today I heard a nice song by Tanya, and tears of contentment just flowed down. Thank you god. Whoever you are. Wherever you are. I am truly a blessed girl.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Feeling blue right now. Is it wrong to want to have a home but at the expense of other not having one? Yes, it is so damn wrong. Why am I always involved in this kind of frustration.
I did all I could. Now it's your turn. Your turn to step up
buy, bye
sucks
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I went through my life most ups and downs within 24 hours
From estatic to penniless
It's time I have commitment in life but I am just not used to it
2010 and before: I have nothing but money
2011 and beyond: I have
everything but money
Monday, January 10, 2011
What is wrong with me. For being such a spoilt brat and not caring a hoot that he is fasting. I think I should be a nicer person, at least for these 2 weeks.
Ps: I can't keep you at arm's length
Work stress is eating me. I am hating SFF more and more. I disgust myself whenever I go for a meeting and smile at people, brains all only thinking about how much sponsorship dollars they will give us. ARGH
Scandal is disappointing me too. The day i quit spoc is the day I will hold him at knife point.
Sunday, January 09, 2011
RSVPed Diary #5
The ladies went shopping today woohoo~
It's amazing how I have started to hate discounts, having to rummage through heaps and piles of ugly fabric. The 1st part of the shopping was a dismay which resulted in a super early dinner.
Met TY when we just mentioned her name causally, amazing.
Shopping after dinner was awesome with all 3 of us getting our dresses. I had wanted a branded dress, in the end I succumbed to Daniel Yam. FML
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
RSVPed Diary #3 maybe #4
We met the Solemnizer today, finally, after an anxious round of calling and rejections. He passed us a generic vows phrases for our reference:
"In token and pledge of our constant faith, and abiding love, with this ring, I marry you"
"I vow to always keep my love, as pure as it is today. In your laughter, and in your tears, in your sickness, and your health. In your comfort, and your fears, in your poverty and your wealth. I promise to be true to you, I promise to cherish you."
After pondering, I finally decided on my customized vow
"Your money is my money. Till bankruptcy do us part"
