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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

OMN's 22nd birthday


i love this pic to the max...
look like 3 model posing sia..


of loves and kisses


crazy pics after 2 bottles of vsop henessy


supper at river valley road

pics from mr woo's camera


my personal favourite is the one which i was chomping on shafiq's stomach!!


NDP preview


all sunny and radiant
perfect lightings for pics haha


patriotism
hiaks
i think i'll send the boy pic to sph and he'll become the cover


night had fallen and parade started
the lighting at the stage is bloody cool


cheese cheese KONIKA!!!


of fireworks and parade


me and the largest floating platform...yeay~~~~


Chalet for the july babies!!!




a 3some gathering at my house after the chalet
then it was off to meet pl's fren for a drinking session at west coast park
wat a hectic week it was

well...tt was arnd 2 weeks ago

last week was a bloody busy week for me
cos i was in camp for almost 1 and a half week

it was tiring but exciting
tormenting but intrigueing
but im dying
and can't afford to play the game
ciaoz



Sunday, July 29, 2007

sheer exhaustion
yes..that pretty much sums up my week
i was toally disconnected from the social world while working in changi
not to mention the activities were packed for the whole day
i lost all my apetite
and fwalah~
i lost 2 kg
yes !!




no pics...
cos im too lazy to post them up

not employed...
cos the company din get back to me

not rich...
cos im spending a lot

but nonethelss
life's pretty exciting to me now

weeeeeeeeeet~~~~~~~

Sunday, July 22, 2007

boo!!
im back
from another tiring camp
voice gone again
nose dripping again
skin burnt again
why am i earning money thru hell....

and my interview was not as good as i had hope
i had not been offered the job yet
i was onli interviewed all over again

now the waiting game started again

i so pray to get this job
hai
pls pls pls
let me get this job la

PS: im no longer crooked
im straight !!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

ugly
sad
down
sian
tired
chaota
unemployed
grouchy
grumpy
fat
bad skin
bad hair days
moody
pms
unloved
poor

tt's bout all im feeling

gimme a pat on my shoulders will ya ?



Sunday, July 15, 2007

Final birthday dinner with my sm
at V8 cafe in bugis junction
thanks for the huge turnout
it was really sweet !!!



The wat kreppe donut hat zhen got for us from hongkong
freaking hilarious to wear it arnd the cafe


my sm of 9 yrs going 10
may our frenship nv end



the 2 birthday girls...

this is a tiramisu cake
and the amt of cream scared me off...haha



i ran out of ideas for caption..seriously
no mood to blog actualli

after dinner
we went to brewerkz for a beer
quite shiok to drink beer with sm lei..haha


6-some date


3 sexy ladies yea....:P

taken in a bar at mhd sultan
something like 'daybed bar'


me and tua dao
his future son will be named gong gong
and future daughter is lala
!!! HAHA

me with the crown
some random bachelor relinquished his throne and betrothed it to me
that was my coronation night


saw shafig there...yet again yes....
fuck u all motha fuckers !!
OPPS


obviously as u can see.
pl is the worst kisser among us
muacks !!
anyone wanna try? hiaks!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

after 2 camps
i am officially burnt
unevenly

i look freaking ugly
and u din hide it

it's funny the way my social circle is widening
but it's kind of fun

i gotta start living a routine and healthy lifestyle
cos all the late nights and fatigue are taking a toil on my complexion
and my health

i am almost 89percent dumb
i can't speak
headaches
restlessness

and i've been getting anxiety attack
everythign arnd me seems to be moving fast
and when i go things slowly...
my head is processing the deeds fast

pls dun let me be sick
i've got an impt interview on mon

i need my voice back !!!

ps: i tried to convince myself it doesn't matter
i tried not to blame
but i can't
how insensitive can one be????




Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i got called back for my 2nd interview ~~
woo hoo~~

i juz hope they dun offer me a start work period tt will clash with my grad trip
i really feel tortured now...
AIYA !!!!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

back home
-shagged-

gotta head back to camp on sun night
yea yea
wat to do?
got money can make ghost push the grinder
(a chinese idiom)

im going to watch ND PRE Parade !!
woohoo~~

ciao

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

dear diary

im going for a camp
one that will prolly zap all my youth and vitality from me
i'll see u on fri when i come back okay?
dun miss me too much ya :P

with love
pen

Monday, July 02, 2007

i was praying i dun get an angmoh interviewer
god answered my prayers
and gave me TWO!!

i nearly jumped out of my skin
but luckily
i had first hand experience chatting with lectureres from london
so all's well end well

my mood was so fucked up today

morn as i was donning on my suit
i felt really depressed
partly from the lack of sleep
partly from the responsibility i felt on my shoulder as i slipped on my coat
i am a grown up
and it aint fun
as i was on the train
i felt really frustrated
having to jostle with the morn crowd
which i had not done in million years
i already got depressed when i think about my future train journeys
and it did not help that there was a guy who smelt so bad it was puke inducing
while waiting for the interview
it was jitters that slowly crept in
and then it was calmness during the interview
then it was excitement happiness and relief all combined together after tt

then on the way home
it was fatigue and extreme hunger
when i reached home and satisfied my hunger pangs
i suddenly realised
i felt really really empty
i was happy and optimistic about my interview
but it seems like i dun really have anyone to share it with
ppl whom i ranted on and on with may be bored to tears i have no idea about

emptiness slowly seeps in
and sadness came
i dunnoe if im happy nowadays
i can get so excited and happy over certain things
onli to be pulled back to earth the next moment by other things

i went to sleep
not able to bear the depression no more
and it din help tt there were so many disturbances

then my dad fetch me to dinner after their ktv session
and my mum was drunk
oh my goodness
first time see my mum laughing and crying like a madwoman
i can see myself in her
she is the split image of me when im drunk
when she was eating bee hoon
she look like she was lao yu sheng !!
hilarious

seeing my mum like this
her smiling so groggily
getting all high
getting entertained by the slightest of things
i start to see the reason behind my alcohol bingeing

unhealthy?
uncool?
wild?
absolutely

lemme indulge for i need a source of happiness



Sunday, July 01, 2007

LOOK
im a PRINCESS

a stranger
who was celebrating his bachelor night
gave me this crown of his
and i simply adore it!!

i feel like miss singapore !!

as u can see
im pretty excited with the crown on my head
can't resist snapping pics after pics


we went out in a sixsome grp
all for the happiness of miss goh
haha
it was a funfilled fri night
with gallant guys treating us to dinner and drinks
felt so pampered to be ferried arnd
haha


it feels great to be a princess
u wan the crown too?
i can loan to u :)


abandoned pic from my previous post

boo!!
i am so hungry
and so HAPPY!!!!