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da jia....lemme sing u all a song.....

"qian bu shi wan neng......dan shi mei qian....que wan wan bu neng...."
money is not everything...but without money...u confirmed finished !.......

i believe society shapes a human nature....
no one is born a shoplifter, nor a liar, nor a pickpocket...
it's got to do with society, the circumstances we are in.

how will a generous man feel after he had just been treated as a carrot and chopped by all the misers around him? doubt tt he will continue his generous streaks right?

money makes frenship turns sour? definitely. there are even children who sue their own parents for money. spouses who fought with each other over alimony and the sale of the house. wat's more a mere friendship...

i dun like to borrow money from ppl... i feel a level lower if i do so... and i dun mean those.." eh i forgot to bring cash..can help me pay for my meepok not"...meagre sum of money okay.
wat if this person whom u can click with ask u for a loan ...and u know that he/she knows u have that sum to spare. can u refuse? can u still be frens if u refuse? but is he/she really relaible?
frankly...i have no answers...to lend or not to lend.... a 100k qns. but most imptly...the million bucks qns is......how to 'siam' from lending lei? haha.. we'll need brainstorming sessions on this

i think i need to learn to be more kay kao...(calculative in hokkien) ...cos ppl arnd me aren't exactly tt generous... and frankly speaking..if u ask me whom i trust the most on this earth..my ans will be..my squadmates..and peilin...cos i know they will always be around.... not forgetting my family and zee....others? can't think of any at the moment. if u think u can me trusted..remind me okay... haha

i really buay tahan those ppl who sponge on ppl...or those who siam from paying...i really really buay tahan... i can reach that despise level already...i oso cannot stand guy so kay kao.... sorry guys... but guys really do have a certain level of generosity that u all have to achieve...unfair i know....but dun we gerls suffer from the perception of 'prized vriginity'? while u guys can have all the one night stand u wan and and proudly put ur 'trophies' on the table ..... see ??? u win some u lose some dudes.....

so i say... follow the direction of the stream....

kay kao if u must...dun hold back.......


everyone must be thinking i veri calculative right.....i wish i am... then i'll be richer.....

everyone have dreams....i used to wan to be a doc... then police....then criminologist....then soon...i juz wan to be a relaxing and chio tai tai wannabe....

i know i have a goal...a short term wan...tt's to get my 1st class....but after tt....then wat???
do i know which comp i wish to join...or do i even wan to work in office....then wat????

i went for a network marketing talk today..tho they share so many inspirational stories...i am still veri skeptical bout the whole concept.....it's purely using the greed of human to earn money....they say they are single level marketing...but ultimately they still boil down to a pyramid structure.... hai dunnoe la...but sometimes veri tempted to try cos i hear them like so easy to succeed.... but does success come easily? NO....i prefer to stick to study hard ..while upgrading myself by taking a third language...yes tt's wat i wan to do now... gonna learn another lang. french? german? hindi? i need to do some research in it.....

i need some more dreams..... hope i'll get some in my sleep later on... haha....
maybe i'll become a singer....
maybe i'll become an actress..
maybe i'll become a beautician...
maybe i'll become a business woman...
maybe i'll become a professional chiongster....ppl pay meto visit their club and to rate...haha
maybe...just maybe....i'll be QUEEN of ENGLAND....william i love u.....

time for me to dream....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

may i noe who's purple stone?

school has started for me... and a brand new journey embarked....literary or not.
has been a 2 weeks of roller coaster rides...but i guess everything's settled. but i feel slightly vague bout my life now.... lost in a way...i've never tried to be so independent before...so alone before....i have no pillar...but i guess i'll have to make do with myself...i will be having fun...finding myself back....i will be able to find solitude by myself...i will be able to achieve all my goals....by myself....i know i can do it.
life is not all bout affairs of the hearts..........
i made new frens in sim... veri fun ppl....whom i believe will make my days in school more fufilled and make myslef more exposed.... i actualli like going to school now...and i joined ODAC...hoping to relive those days of camping fun.
i think i am growing up and i'm glad...
but on the other hand i felt bad as growing up is not a veri fortunate event...as others suffered due to my immaturity....this sucks....

i'm joining talentime in sim... gonna sing duet with one fren... haha...dun think can win...and gonna make a spectacle of myself....but WHO CARES...life is too short for over-fretting

i'm gonna make use of this period and really go all out and CHIONG my life....basks in all diff amazing experiences..... 2 more years of school left....and i actualli felt sad...i'll miss being a student

i won allow myself to be a backslider...i wun slip....i will move forward for i have made my decision...u'll never know wat's in for u in the future..and i sure am looking forward to mine...

Live strong.

he's bleeding.... i'm bleeding too.....i'm begginning to doubt my ability to love someone
so much fluctuations....so much uncertainty...so many differences....so many difficulties....but yet so many happy memories....i wan to be weak...i wan to give in... want to walk back to him...but i know myself so well....this cycle will keep repeating....maybe i'm not ready to commit into a relationship yet..esp one that requires so much commitment and determination...y did i stepped onto the path that i noe i won have the will to walk on...why was i so wilful....why was i so naive...why did i make myself so painful now..why did i make him so painful now
am i being selfish? i dunnoe ..i think i am. i dun wan to live in tolerance for the rest of my life....
can i continue and tell myself that things can work out? how? our families can't communicate..ideas and culture clash...religions clash...country clash...and even worse...personality clash....
2 yr is coming....
my mind is flooded
my heart is flooded
my eyes are flooded

wat do i wan?
wat do i wan?
i wan a successful life.
i am 20 yr old.
i wan to explore my life.
enjoy my life.
it's scary how things changes
i'm excited i'm scared i'm nervous
i'm happy i'm sian i'm siao i'm a freaking asshole...
wat am i?
i dunnoe
wat do i wan?
i dunoo
pls ..someone give me some clue....

APPLAUSE !!!!!!!!! MY RESULTS FINALLY OUT !!!!!

my accounting and econs not really fantastic ..but i passed all and my maths and stats are veri good. banking oso veri good ....haha... feel so good now that i know my average is 71 !! and tt's first class honours !!! i feel so good right now.

the chalet was really fun.. made many new frens.. esp those who know wat's going around in school...so next time can ask them if i wan any lobangs.. yea....

i just told my mum bout my results... when u did well.. u are more eager to tell them..... well her eyes lit up...and i can tell she's really happy...guess i've disappointed her too many times... it's time she get her smart daughter back whom she can be veri proud of man....haha
even tho i dun belong to the top 3 unis in sing...but i believe my UOL degree is just as recognized...if i do well... get my 1st class... i think it's quite an attractive degree as well... haha

i have to continue to work hard..can't be slack... cos my papers really quite tough... many ppl in my cohort failed... and some failed quite badly... and it freaked me out a little... but nonetheless.....

I FEEL GOOD......

i always complained tha i lack something.... jealous of ppl who has it... but now i have the chance...i feel lost....hmm...pray tt i dun fall.......